I share the midnight.

I could use some direction in my writing.

An Arcade Fire song just came on. Wake Up, from Funeral. I fucking love this song. It's the song that goes with the trailers for Where the Wild Things Are. Consequently, I really want to see this movie.

Maybe it's just the song that does it for me.
Maybe it's that desperate attempt to hang onto what I loved in childhood.
Maybe it's because that the boy who plays Max looks familiar.
Almost exactly like Ben.

Ben. Six years, seven months, three days, and about ten hours. It's been a while since I thought about him.

Whenever I see the trailer or I hear the song, my throat gets a little tighter. My knees weaken a little and I get quiet.

I think I know what I want from life. But I'm not sure I can put it here.