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I've been trying to simplify.

I figure if I can rid my life of all non-necessities, some of this anger will dissipate.

No luck so far.

[I'm tired]

well that backfired

I didn't wear any makeup this week. Not that I generally wear a lot of makeup; I'm not one of those people who cakes themselves in layer upon layer of "beauty" products. That being said, I find myself outside of my comfort zone when I don't have at least a little bit of cosmetic support.

This week I thought I'd try something different. There have been enough stressors in my life recently that I figured any way to make my daily routine less complicated would be a good thing. I also thought that dropping makeup would give me a chance to become comfortable with my all-natural self. If I could get through a week, maybe I could give up makeup altogether!

Nope.

It's been a week and I cannot count the number of people who have told me I look "tired," "sick," or "pale." There have been those who haven't initially recognized me and a few who have asked if everything was alright.

Fuck.

Moral of the story: a) don't experiment with your physical appearance; b) if you're going to do it, be ready to take some hits.